Derek Lords Blog

I made many real discoveries over the Labor Day Weekend.  Growth, which is not conscious is no growth at all.  According to Rudi, in a lecture given at a San Francisco Ashram dedication in 1970 something, I have to be conscious of my inner work.  To me, this means no autopilot.  Not ever.  So that’s where the time goes, so that’s how I end up off track so much.

I find gauging my own progress to be problematic, however, and so that’s just something else to turn over to the universe.  As I let the universe guide me, I tap into a deeper realm.  It is notworthy as I go deeper inside myself this is always the way it is.  I am a layered creature.  I general, it’s just always better to go deper and to get more clear inside, more centered, more balanced and more open.  More capable of expressing the higher emotions of which my human heart is capable of expressing.

Paramahansa Yogananda

(From the book Metaphysical Meditations by Paramahansa Yogananda)

Sit still with a straight spine. Cover up your fidgety eyeballs with the sheets of your eyelids. Hold them still. Then loosen your mind from the consciousness of body-weight. Relax the nerve-strings that are attached to the heavy muscles and bones of your body.  Forget the consciousness of carrying a heavy bundle of bones tied in the thick cloth of flesh.  Rest.  Free your mind from the consciousness of a beast of burden. Do not think of your body-load, but feel your soul untied from the constant material quality of heaviness.  Mentally race in your fancy’s airplane above, beneath, left, right in infinity, or wherever you want to go.  Feel and meditate on this, your mental freedom from your body.  Dream, dwell and feel this body-aboveness when sitting still; the consciousness of freedom will constantly increase.